Now...

So there was one bar night that brendan told me i should get wasted if he's driving us, so i do and i was a bit clingy flirty.. nothing worse than my birthday, in fact A LOT milder than my birthday, but he made a point to tell me to ease up, which pissed me off.. like he can be bi when hes drunk, but when he tells me to get smashed and i get flirty its a different thing.. either way he made a point to say its not happening and that he isnt gay. so i wasnt going to keep trying with him..
this all happened during my 'giving brendan another chance to be around' but now that i know they like each other and had that little insight, i cant be the same around them cuz candice wasnt being honest from the start and watching them they do like each other, and she still encouraged me to get close to him and such and that is just setting me up for a harder fall, so i began to just ignore brendan completely. considering he isn't healthy for my mentality for the time being. And candice knows that im upset and why.

So anyway, in the time that has passed, Me and Brendan's friend Andrew kinda hit it off and could have been dating already but decided that i dont want to start anything RIGHT before christmas so i said our first date would be when he gets back to res.. but whenever candice and brendan, meghan and I would go to the bar for the week before xmas break i invited andrew as well.
well like 2 days before they go for xmas break im on my way to barrie to go xmas shopping with andrew and meghan, and on the highway i got a text from candice asking me if i would hate her if she started dating brendan, so all of a sudden this "i dont really like him" isn't true.. surprise surprise.. So i didnt answer for a bit finally with a "I cant answer this", well she texted meg something similar.. (meghan and brendan had a thing at the beginning of the school year, and candice is also meghans best friend, so candice is also in violation of girl code's DONT DATE MY EXE thingy) anyway, meghan was avoiding the question all night too and finally talked to candice on facebook that night, i guess she said something along the lines of "i dont fucking care, u've made your choice.. but think of who you're hurting"

so candice held off 'dating' him so i could get over him (like it happens that easy -.-) and she thinks that because me and andrew are going to be dating that its all of a sudden a green light to date him.. No, i'm dating andrew because im over brendan, Im dating andrew because i cant stay around brendan and keep trying if its not going anywhere, im moving on but im not over him.. and because she set me up for that fall and didnt talk to me about it from the start, I will never be okay with the 2 of them dating.

Well turns out anything that i have been saying, and meghan has been saying. has ALL been relayed right back to brendan, so ive just stopped talking about him. I was going to talk to candice after new years and before they get back from xmas break and explain how i feel and stuff. and my point of view and why it hurts me so much, but it seems its too late...

I guess brendan drove the 3 hours to be in the area on new years -.-
So new years comes around, and candice's relationship status changes to no longer single, and brendan made 7 posts announcing that he now has a GF. Well me and meghan are really hurt she did this to us. and we're both like Fuck it, she made her choice, she got what she wanted. So im ignoring her and avoiding her, i could just say FUCK IT you're a lousy friend, but i do care about her, and she is my friend somewhat, so this response seems fine. She didnt tell either one of us that it was happening.

Anyway, Andrew and Brendan are good friends, so me dating him i might still have to be around him, but the last 2 times i was out with them i made such a great and successful effort of not making eye contact or talk to Brendan, and that is probably what im going to continue to do, as for me and Candice going out to the bars like we used to.. well fuck that. I ain't driving her. Brendan can waste his gas at fucking 1.12 a litre in his gas guzzling truck to drive here and back and here and back.. even if im going to barrie anyway to see andrew, which i probably will be doing often. So yea, thats where i'm at.