So I'm guessing things between Candice and I are not mend-able. She has made her choice. So I just need to move on from that whole situation.
As for things between me and Andrew, well I realized the first day he got back from christmas break (well I kind of had that inclination from the start cuz i never did 'fall' for him like I do with other guys, I just agreed to date hoping there would be a spark) that I just didn't want anything more from him than friendship. unfortunately he was into me like a lot, so it made it really hard to tell him, but honesty is best and he was hurt. But it would not have been fair to continue leading him on. Also moreso the reason I agreed to it was because I needed a distraction from Candice and Brendan. Now Candice and Brendan are probably out of my life, and Andrew isn't going to talk to me for a while (if ever) because he needs time. In the meantime Meghan, Melissa and I have become really close friends. and a special someone (Cody <3 ) has come into my life.
The only, well blip, with this is that he is married, but I really hope he legitimately likes me and stays. His hubby is going to Nova Scotia for work in the military reasons, and he was supposed to go but he is staying. I am aware that this kinda makes me look like a homewrecker, but there is a lot to the story... and i'm not going to get into all the details..
It's almost as if it's fate that we met each other. I'm the man of his dreams (teehee) and he's just amazing. The only other person I liked this much was straight, and my best friend in the end of 2008 and through the first half of 2009, Josh. Until he got this stupid girlfriend to which he decided to devote ALL time with and completely write me out of his social life. But hey, I moved on. I know I am falling fast with Cody, but I usually do. It just feels right. I am super attracted to him and he seems like a genuinely nice guy. He cares about me, I care about him, I love just being around him even if we're not doing anything exciting. He makes me laugh, I make him laugh. and I just want to be with him. It's the first time that I have feelings this strong for someone AND they like me back. I think about him almost all the time. like my phone is literally filled with Cody texts. I really hope this works out. I don't want to get hurt. Anyway I'm looking super forward for Friday. We're supposed to spend the day together and I can't wait. I want to date him. =D
Anyway, that's just a slight overview of the current events in my life :) I'm probably going to spend the rest of tonight texting and reading. (I would also be surprised if this blog even gets read, lol)
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